10/12/24-Storm Clouds Bring on Doom and Gloom

I have gotten a few concerns of late that this blog has become a little gloomy, that it has become a way to say good-bye and that it seems as if I'm giving up.

While writing here does have a cathartic element (impressive vocabulary, huh?), by no means am I writing my epilogue.  I don't think I have ever been a quitter, and I am not starting now.  This is the biggest challenge I have ever fought, but that doesn't mean I am doomed to lose.

I continue to fight, using modern medicine as a weapon, although I have my reservations that the chemotherapy and other procedures are not a realistically a cure, but a extension on life to the unavoidable.

I do believe that the human body is an amazing organism and has the ability to heal itself in many cases.  I continue to investigate the possibility of more holistic ways to fight as an option.

But at the same time I do need to realize that this is a fight where the cards are stacked against me.  And for that reason I need to be ready to face the fact that this is a fight I may lose.  In reality we will all lose this battle at some point, and it seems to come when we are not prepared for it.

Overall I do feel good right now.  For that reason I do believe that my battle will be a lengthy one.  And everyday brings the optimism that maybe I can win this encounter with mortality.

I apologize that this post might be a little dreary, but I promise more positivity is coming.  

Hockey season started and Vegas is 2-0.  So that's a positive element.