12/18/24-The Last...

I have been kind of down in the dumps lately.  I'm starting to feel like my life is getting ready to become a series of lasts.  The last Christmas, The last New Year, The last National Bean Day (January 6th, by the way).

I guess it would be heathy to try to embrace the days and to get the most out of them.  But right now that is hard to do.  I find myself just dreading the days themselves.

How do I put on a happy face and celebrate the holiday when I really don't want to.  At this moment 6 days from Christmas, I just want to sit by myself and wallow in my own sadness.  But that's not fair to my friends and family.

I know that I'm not going through this alone.  I have support from friends and family.  I can always take comfort in my faith in God.  But sometimes it does seem like I am going through this out on a branch by myself, waiting for the branch to finally break.

So what should I do?

I know that my friends and family would understand if I acted a little bah humbug for the holiday, but I really should try to embrace the day and celebrate as best I can.  Hopefully as we get closer to Christmas the holiday spirit will overcome me.  Probably not, but time will tell.