4-16-25: Not Allowed to Celebrate

I finished radiation today. 7 weeks of traffic to La Jolla, getting zapped, followed by more traffic home is over.  This should be a time to celebrate the end of a stage of treatment.  But as things go for me over the last year there is no joy in Mudville again. Just as one door closes another seems to force itself open. 

I am now having issues with my biliary drains.  I was already going to get them checked and changed at the end of the month, but they seem to be feeling neglected and can't wait that long.  For 2 consecutive days they have leaked.  This means uncomfortable times of the feeling of a wet sponge being held against my side.  Its especially uncomfortable knowing its not wet with water but soaked with bile.  And the most I get to look forward to a bandage change, which also sucks.

These are the times when it's hard to be positive, but I'm trying.  I really don't know what is next and the uncertainty makes it even harder to look to the future with a positive attitude. 

Sorry this is such a downer, but that's how cancer goes. It's a wave of highs and lows.  The hope is that the highs are longer and higher than the lows are low.  Unfortunately, right now the low is pretty low.